Yesterday, I was unable to prepare my clothes for today and yesterday's basketball club meeting. So I asked my ate and my mom to do the work in packing it and asked the driver to send it over to school during recess. :( For the first 3 periods, I seemed to be a scatty person. :| And today's just the same, my life is still unyielding. It does not even want to bend with ease. :| :(
Today's the same. Hey, it's the same like what I said in the preceding paragraph. =)) Except for the fact that my insecurities grew more. :( Well, I got an award, it was not a simple award but a noble one for the others because "it brings honor to your family." Maybe, I'm getting this feeling since it's not that hard to get the same award nonetheless that I change my attitude towards my peers and my mentors. Moreover, insecurity piled up due to that GYLC thing. :( Now, I'm trying to reconsider the decision I've made in the past. :| I was a nominee too and I got the chance to go to Washington D.C. and New York City to avoid indifference in our world. Yet, every single day that I hear them being congratulated or be recognized for their efforts, I try to ask myself, maybe I should have been there too, right? But I guess, for now, I made a frugal decision. It was unfair for my family that I was supposed to fly to U.S. with them being left here in the Philippines. :(
I hope another oppurtunity will come and I'm still decided on taking up the SATs after my dad leaves when he comes back to work in Saudi Arabia. In that way, he wouldn't stop me from trying to take the exam. :) :>
Hey, ever thought of wanting to win but you still want to lose 'cause you know that deep inside, you're expecting something. Expecting something unusual and extraor
dinary from the wrong person...
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